Been a while eh?

12 Aug

I have had a pretty crazy summer.

It’s been a crazy year, crazy since the day I was born, but more so the last five years of my life.

This crazy run though is coming to a crazy end. We’re coming up on the fifth year and many of my creative projects are coming to fruition. Even who I was five years ago is something to think about………I was so naive back then (like I was any less naive last summer)

Well Crazy ain’t cutting it anymore. Crazy has worked for me the last 31 years but its no longer working and has been working less for me over the last couple of years.

So we’re coming to a new strategy a new angle to attack this animal that we call life. Sometimes you gotta wrestle with the tiger, it won’t nap all day, sometimes the tiger’s gotta run.

In the past month and a half I’ve been seeing a therapist (not SEEING ONE but seeing one). There was a time when I’d have been too proud to seek counseling. I thought I could figure it out on my own.

PHOOEY!!!!! That’s POPPYCOCK!!!!!!!

I should have been seeing a therapist ten years ago when I left for university. Man I needed it badly then too. Who knows where I’d be had I started seeing one then. Honestly I think everyone should see a therapist. It should be part of our health plans, no required by every company that gives benefits to full time employees.

As it is I’ve found the one perfect for me and I’m starting to make some serious connections between my destructive patterns and my early life. Crazy how much those formative years stay with you, even when you don’t realize it.

So the early part of the year was the deconstruction period. The next year and a half will be the reconstruction period (probably longer).

I’ve got a lot to look forward to in the next few months. Got a top secret project I’m working that I can’t reveal for another four months.

I’ll be ministering my first wedding in October.

Looking forward to that Wichita hospitality

and I have got a few poetry readings in the next couple of weeks. One in Wichita, one in Norman, and the other at Laborfest in Oklahoma City.

Also my third collection of poetry is due out soon, and I just finished the manuscript for my fourth book of poems. Its a hefty one, over one hundred poems.

Its been a good year. Emotional as hell. But good. I’ve accomplished a great deal of the goals I set for the year. The wedding will be the culmination, the coup de grace for me.

The time is coming to hunker down and pitch a tent and do some real work. My five year grace period is almost over. The time is coming soon for a 40 hour work week at a nine to five. But not quite yet.

Good talking to you again.

p.s. I just recently received in the mail, a gift of a digital camera so the first time in a long time I have been taking pictures. It feels great to be able to visually record my crazy adventures again.

Well I'll tell you a secret. I am crazy and if you tell anybody I'll kill you.


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