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Oregon Trails

5 Feb

Not missing the limelight…barely miss the sunlight…..though I’m sleeping more than I should be…..tough getting up when its raining and cold
and so warm underneath my blanket.

Different scene up here. Its tough…you know its bad when white people are on food stamps….(though its nothing but white people up here, I’m one of 13 black people in Oregon, the other 12 play for the Portland Trailblazers)

the crazy thing is that I think I should’ve been on food stamps as early as 2006….I never knew it was that easy to get on them.

Maybe I should’ve applied for economic hardship on my student loan as well. It amazes me how little I understand about finances. Perhaps I should marry an accountant like my buddy T did.

But I see why God made the weed so good up here. It helps combat the doldrums one can easily get from living in the northwest. Cold, rainy, but beautiful (gorgeous when its sunny), and the weed helps point that out (living in Seattle must be like living on Venus–all that rain).

Something unusual about Oregon is that you can’t pump your own gas. They pay gas attendants to do that. Supposedly its to help stimulate jobs here……however if you go to the grocery store you’ll see U-scan machines to scan your own groceries….. how does this make sense…..those machines take away people’s jobs, just like in Vonnegut’s Player Piano. The worst part about it is you have one employee doing the work of four people because that employee is essentially running four registers at once, since they are the ones who have to provide assistance when the inevitable foul-up occurs.

Other than that everything is good here. Just sent in the artwork for the next book, “Toss offs and Throwaways” and working on my fourth book, which will be a juggernaut with at least 60-85 poems in it. All I need is a job. Keep your fingers crossed.

BMick’s last stand

22 Jan

That’s it. I’m done.

Finished with stand up for the decade.

No more dick jokes to drunks in bars and grills, no more depressing ass open mics.

I’ve got better ways to spend my time.

If I ever miss it, I’ll just remind myself why I started in the first place. To cure my social anxiety hangups…so now I can look forward to eight hour sets in the field of education.

I walked in and walked out and I’m better for it…but let’s face it, I was always a writer moonlighting as a comic; not the other way around.

Haiti

16 Jan

I find it funny that everyone is so concerned about Haiti now that its in the news for the devestating earthquake(7.0).

Everyone is freaking out, some more genuinely concerned than others, and much like the Tsunami fiasco a few years ago, there are people out there outchic–ing each other to donate more than the other person.

“Oh those poor Haitians”

it’s not like they were living in the lap of luxury before the earthquake. they have always had some serious problems that needed addressing…just read the “The Farming of Bones by Edwidge Danticat”

or listen to Haiti by the Arcade Fire…….

I find it awesome that the Red Cross could raise 35 million in 3 days for such a noble cause…hopefully it’ll raise awareness about the country in general…..

however how come we can’t come up with the dough to support local and neighborhood causes here in the U.S? We don’t have that kind of money to support programs that will benefit this country?

Landfill clean ups, alternative energy projects or non-profit organizations?????

The agency I was previously employed at in Oklahoma just had to cut a couple of projects because of under-funding.

Now North tulsa boys (and area where the youth are mostly at risk for gangs, violence and crime) have to suffer when we couldn’t pony up the funds to help them out, and also help our communities– because those young men may not get the mentoring that keep them from falling in the cracks….how about making donations to causes that most directly affect us….

I’m not saying that we shouldn’t help other countries in dire times of need (within reason) but I am saying that before people go all Bradgelina on people and start adopting kids from overseas….take a look at what’s immediately around us and try to help there…..if not from our pocketbooks, then maybe just volunteering some time…..

When are we Americans going to start taking care of our own?????

BMICK

Happy GNU year

7 Jan

Not only does January signal the new but also the end of things.
Yes that’s right Jim Mora…. the playoffs.

starting tonight with the BCS championship game.

I’m gonna go on a limb and say Texas beats Alabama 24-17.

This weekend the NFL playoffs start and with that I’ll take Philly over Dallas, Bengals over Jets, New England over Baltimore and Arizona over Green Bay.

**** Eugene has been a good change. I managed to get myself entangled in some drama before I left that I’m still dealing with the residual effects..but I’m past it mentally, and soon enough emotionally…..

but I’m happy to be here. I love the energy, and I feel like everything is working out the way it should. The feeling of being exactly at the right place at the right time.

Outside of Austin and Denton, probably the coolest college town I’ve managed to find myself in. Not sure how long I’ll stay and don’t care.
I just know that it’ll be a really enjoyable time because this is where I’ve wanted to be all along, but just didn’t know it.

Goodbye Tulsa

7 Dec

Eve of Departure XXXV

7 Dec

Looking ahead to next year, where a move is inevitable. Just made it official, moving to west Eugene during the new year and end of the decade. 2010 will be pretty monumental, year 4 of the five year plan.

This year was pretty awesome…dominated by crazy but exotic lovers, good friends, crazy incidents involving angry Indian men (casinos not slurpees) chasing me with rusty shovels…..

got my degree did a great deal of traveling…found a job that I love….got a couple of books published…had lots of good sex…and had a lot of laughs…..so how do I top that?????

Goals for 2010:
Take up Guitar
Tai Chi classes
write a treatment for an animated short
Get my teaching certificate
CPR certification
Write and record a comedy album
start a country band
take boxing lessons
edit old short stories and send them off for publication
publish my latest book of poems, “Toss offs and Throwaways”
Write and complete another book of poetry, tentatively titled “Blooming, Bursting and Burning”
eat better
remove corn, wheat, and soy from diet.

Exit Velocity

4 Nov

So it is time to make a decision. No more hemming and hawing.

Just make a decision and be man enough to stand behind it.

Ok. Eugene it will be. Why Eugene, you ask?

Because that is the biggest challenge. Because it is the craziest of the options, because it makes no sense.

The same people who will be questioning this will be the same people who said ” Why the fuck Tulsa, Ok?”

It’s crazy but when haven’t I not done the crazy stuff huh?

Exactly. As crazy as it was to move down here on a whim, it was the best decision I could’ve made.

I’ve gotten to the point where I hardly question myself. I know myself well enough at this point to just follow through and plow ahead, knowing that whatever I decide is the best decision.

Regarding moving, I’ve been thinking about it too much, and not feeling it. My head has been saying, Dallas, Oakland, Portland, and Austin.

But my heart says Eugene. It felt the best of all the west coast cities I visited this fall.
Doesn’t necessarily make sense, considering the many connections I have in other cities, and the few connections (almost nil) I have in Eugene.

but I’ve got to do what’s best for my writing career.

The thought of going onstage and doing stand up frightens me more than I want to admit. Just time to step away for a while. Just one more first draft and I’ll be free to really kick it.

Edit Edit Edit. a reading here and there, Tai chi and guitar chords on a used Gibson acoustic.

Why not? Portland is still only a couple of hours away. Okay. Time to get it on then. Tie up the loose ends and develop and exit strategy. Save save save til Boxing Day, and then on with it.

If there is something scaring you, then maybe there is reason to embrace it and see why. Embrace yourself, keep testing yerself as Emilio Estevez says to Lou Diamond Phillips on “Young Guns’, right before the peyote trip.

Bravery isn’t lacking fear, its going on in spite of it.

Middle of the Road

27 Oct

neil-young-bw-photo“Traveling there soon became a bore, so I headed for the ditch. A rougher ride, but I saw more interesting people there.”
–Neil Young, in the Decade liner notes

New Book

23 Oct

Instant Exchange of Recognition finally on sale at LULu.com

Its actually more of a bargain than S& M. $13.30 in American dollars..

check it out.

Mick

Quite possibly the toughest man who ever lived

15 Oct

Dick Proenneke.

just found out about this cat. Watched a film on him at the library. Built his own fucking log cabin in the wilderness. Even the door hinges were made from a bucket…..carved his own spoons and bowls…..what tha fuck????

he left in 1968 to go up to Alaska and stayed for 30 years…..30 years no tang???? Dude was like a monk. Amazing. Simply Amazing.