Archive | July, 2009

Canadian Bacon

13 Jul

Big Bear!! Big Bear!!!! Chase me!!!!!

Big Bear!! Big Bear!!!! Chase me!!!!!

Top 13 reasons why I love Canadians:

1)Bret “Hitman” Hart (My favorite wrestler of all time)
2)Toronto Maple Leafs uniforms (and Felix “the cat” Potvin)
3)The Band
4)Do Make Say think
5)Wolverine (from the Yukon and favorite comic book hero ever)
6) Broken Social Scene
7)Mark Messier (We have the same birthday)
8)1992 Toronto Blue Jays (David Cone was a stud and another Capricorn)
9) Arcade Fire
10)Neil Young (more on him later)
11)Kids in the Hall
12) John Candy
13) Godspeed You Black Emperor

I’m sure I’ll find more reasons on my next visit in August. That’s right bitches.

“I’m going back to Canada on a Journey Thru the Past. Will I still be in your heart and on your mind?” ~Neil Young~

Home.

8 Jul

You mean to tell me that Rocky beat Action Jackson and Mr. T in a three year span? That's a hell of a run.

You mean to tell me that Rocky beat Action Jackson and Mr. T in a three year span? That's a hell of a run.I pity the fool who believes that honkey bullshit

I said my last goodbye yesterday morning to my old friend Mr. Giles. Sporting a badly cut mohawk haircut, wearing the same clothes from two days before, stinking to high heaven with no socks on, and covered from head to toe in bug bites, I embraced my friend for what could be the last time in a long time.

He leaves on his own journey in a few months and so the next time I may see him might possibly be next summer, if things worked out that way.

On balance it was a good trip. a few hiccups here and there, didn’t sell any books, and didn’t perform as much as I should’ve. I could’ve easily just quit once the Toronto phase ended but it was important to see the rest of the east coast and get rid of those regional biases.

Glad to be back in Tulsa believe it or not. Love the slow laid back pace. It feels quite nice and Oklahoma feels very down to earth after being in the big cities back east.

Philadelphia was surprisingly friendly. I never felt threatened, but I imagine that it was pretty hard in south Philly for a black man in the 80’s. Especially with the “Rocky” craze going on back then. White people rooted for Rocky a little too much if you know what I mean.

So what now you ask?

Well, lot’s and lots of work. Halfway through the trip I realized just how much harder I was going to have to push in order to be where I wanted to be. and so the work begins.

I’ve got lots of flights to book, things to write, and people to email. It’s going to be an interesting rest of the year.

Nothing like traveling to confirm where you are as a person and in life. I’ve grown rather fond of Tulsa and my job and life here. I have good friends and a good job and Oklahoma is a rather nice place to hole up for a while. I have no regrets about coming here and no matter where I end up in the next 10-15 months, I’ll always love it here.

My scent and chemistry have been changed by the sights and sounds of traveling and now I’ve got to take that momentum and push forward. It will take a little bit to process things but for now its back to the grind.

see ya in a couple of weeks.

BM

Rooftop hellos /Platform goodbyes

6 Jul

There is such a profound feeling of busting through to the daylight on my buddy’s Brooklyn rooftop to have a smoke and a talk.

July 4th was an extra special one. My last day in NYC overlooking all the buildings and sky.

I finally got to see Japanther and Ninjasonik over in Bedstuy. Imagine my square ass walking through these neighborhoods. But lots of people dress the way I do in New York, tight bermuda shorts, cut-off blue jean shorts. Black kids skate boarding everywhere while listening to punk music.

It was a beautiful thing to see.

i thought about all this while taking my last toke for the week. Jay-Z was blaring on someone’s radio nearby, and we had a black president in office for the first time ever on this particular 4th.

i indeed felt like brushing my shoulders off.

Lots of friends not only making it here, but doing well. I couldn’t hate on this place, it was so alive, music playing everywhere, and people were actually friendly.

Even the women seemed to come out and make their presence known before i left (or maybe they always been around and I haven’t been paying attention)

I hugged my friend goodbye on the the 14th street stop and he stepped off onto the platform, then i headed towards times square. my vacation was officially over.

As we embarked on our evening journey towards Philadelphia, we rode out of the Holland tunnel to be greeted by 4th of July fireworks. I’m not one to pee in my pants about some fireworks, but there was something to be said about seeing a full moon along the NYC skyline and a smorgasbord of fireworks bursting in the distance.

If you can’t feel good about something like that, then well you need your pulse checked. Sometimes this country aint so bad to live in ya know?

eve of departure VII

4 Jul

A little hung over right now.

Heading out of town in 9 hours, to my last stop to hang with the great Andrew Jonathan Giles.

Jersey here I come.

worn out, really, ready for a long rest, the city has a way of wearing you out.

July 4th and I should be excited, but honestly i’ve had way too much excitement. already thinking about all the work i have to do when I get back. All the work i WANT to do when I get back.

Final thoughts on New York:

Great place, lots of fun.

Weird and exotic, I don’t stick out like a sore thumb here, i can simply blend. Weirder cats than me around.

It was a funny sensation to drunkenly look around FAt Cat’s and listen to live jazz and play ping pong with a bunch of folks who were once getting booze from me back in the UNT dorms.

I understand why people love New York City. it’s hip and exciting, lots to do.

it truly is a grand stage and great spectacle.

As for back home we got lots to do. I’ve got to book all my trips for the fall, finish the necessary projects by their (self-imposed) deadlines.

And now i get to get back to work…….

process the old, bring in the new and get my equilibrium back.

But New York didn’t kick my ass and take my wallet, what a difference nine years makes.

When I first came I was 21 and never been to a big city, it was quite overwhelming. kept thinking bout that Rolling Stones song, “Shattered“.

I’ll be back for sure to test the comedic waters and do some promoting for the new book coming out in September.

I reckon that aint too far away. looking forward to the farm, and then home.

Next time i’ll be blogging from my computer at work,

at home.

Effortless Reflection

2 Jul

It was unavoidable.
The pain and wonder
weren’t
worth giving
in to
the fear
of attachment.

She and the
city
worked
in tandem
to break
down
all
my defenses,

crumpling
under
her touch
until
I felt
my
whole body alive
with
self
awareness.

So when
I told
her I
loved
her

I couldn’t
have meant
the
accumulation
of all
her experiences
that
made her
who she
was.

I barely knew
her.

I didn’t just
mean
the amazingly
beautiful
woman
she was
becoming
right before
my very eyes.

Nor was I
just talking
about
the
invisible
orb
within her
that held
her
capacity
to empathize
and embrace
everything around her.

I was
also
saying
that I loved
the person
I was
when
I was
with
her.

It was effortless
to become
the person
I wanted
to be.

It finally
caught up
to me
when
the bus left
the downtown
Greyhound
station.

Passing
all
the streets
I’d roamed
just
weeks
and days
earlier.

Rethinking
my feelings
about the week
of rooftop conversations
and backyard
grilling,
and making
salads
from the
greens
in her garden.

Then I felt
myself
crying.

About
leaving her.

Crying about leaving
the city.

And finally
crying
about leaving
behind
the person

I was
going to
be.

~Edward Austin Robertson~

Eating Crow pt. II

2 Jul

I take back everything negative I’ve ever said about New York.

It really ain’t so bad.

Exotic and strange, there is a lot of sass and attitude here that you just don’t get anywhere else. A lot of dirt and grime, but also a lot of character, and style. Surprisingly laid back, and hip too.

I still believe that the women from Toronto are better looking, but how does that really matter eh?

Met my friend G_____ in town. He picked me up at the station after a nice little rendezvous in Syracuse/Ithaca with Howling Mime.

We immediately headed to the lower east side to someone’s penthouse and my NYC adventure started. The guy there took us on his roof and we chatted over the fire escape as I gazed skyward at the city and its buildings in between puffs on the magical L train.

Coming in that night via Greyhound, you could see the city lurking far away. The buildings in the skyline all lit up, sort of how I could see San Francisco from far away on the ride in from Oakland.

It made me think of how Lebron James, kobe Bryant, and Michael Jordan felt whenever they came to town to dismantle the Knicks. No surprise those performances came.

New York is a city with epic proportions, come hard or don’t come at all. You gotta show up when the lights come on. There is a certain force here that eggs you on, spurs you to do the unthinkable, the unimaginable, and to do it when the spotlight shines brightest.

i could see the beautiful monster that is NYC on that bus, and I looked at it, smiled, and nodded and embraced it.

I like getting lost here, no one gives two shits about who you are or what you do. makes great for people watching. i can just blend in here.

There is lots of electricity here, you can feel it from the ground up, even when you sleep. this city is a big machine, with cogs, wheels, and wires behaving as veins, pulsing that electricity towards the people and causing the madness that ensues.

Brooklyn I like. The vibe here is much more laid back than in Manhattan reminds me of Oakland in lots of ways, and i felt strangely at home here. It was just like out of Do the Right thing or other New York shows/movies I’ve seen, people on the stoop, kids playing on the sidewalk, three old men hanging by the liquor store.

It was a bit easier to sleep here than Manhattan, although it was fun sticking my head out of the window of the hotel and blowing smoke out onto the street. Made me think about the crazy times Kerouac, Ginsberg, and Cassedy had when they hung out together and met up in various cities across the country.

Went to good show called Fontana’s which was fun. There was a band from Sasketchawan, Violent Kin, playing and they celebrated Canada day by giving out flags and other trinkets. I even played cow bell on one song. We swapped cds for books at the end of the night, so that felt good. they were a fun band.

Three more days here then off to camp in Jersey then home again.

I’ll never book myself so long out again. A long time to be gone, I’m tired and want to get my life back in working order. though this trip has been really important for a number of reasons.

Seeing the country and doing away with old prejudices, and picking up new ones in return. Things are going to be a bit more interesting. Got a lot of work to do when I get back. And an interesting chain of events I’m sure will unfold when I get back. But for now, all that is on my mind is getting myself a goat roti.

BM